Explore Your Faith
(Re)Find Your Faith
Gangs for God exists to challenge and support people who want to take a closer look at what they believe. I challenge you to not just believe because you were told to or because you’ve always thought a certain way. Explore your faith and make it your own
As a devout skeptic, and “heretical” worshiper, I’ve struggled to find answers to my questions. And worse, I’ve struggled to find a place to think critically about what I believe. That’s why I decided to found Gangs for God. So those of you who want to be challenged and loved at the same time can find a safe and encouraging place to grow.
You don’t have to like me or agree with me on everything to be a part of the conversation. All you have to have is the desire to grow and the willingness to share your thoughts.
Thinking that church represented God, I suddenly found that I hated them and did not believe in God. It was traumatic. As little as my connection was with family, it was all I had. Now I was going to lose my family and all of my friends. I knew the disrespect they had for non-believers, and now I was one. Even though I never told them what I was thinking, and I started growing distant from them.
Then a miracle happened. I was sitting alone in the car, in the evening, to get away from family. And I was thinking about all this. I knew I had to be honest with myself so I had to give God a chance. A disc jockey on the radio said something so timely that it matched and answered what was in my thoughts at the exact moment.
I thought that maybe, just maybe God did just talk to me. I just opened the door a crack. Then I went to look up a salvation scripture. All the Bible asked me to do was call Jesus God and believe he rose from the dead. That’s all that was required to get saved. Where was all the church crap? It wasn’t there, wasn’t required. Suddenly God seemed very – undemanding, very reasonable. Again I just opened the door a crack, but it changed my life from then on. And I then knew that the expectations of the church and the expectations of God did not necessarily line up very well.
At about twenty years old I ran into a church that focused on what the Bible said, about how we should live. They used the Bible for a guide instead of arbitrary rules, like most churches.
But they too had their problems. As one guy said, we were doing everything right but God was not there. We were learning about grace, which is unearned and undeserved favor from God. I knew they were right but it was very troubling. I left that church, not because they were wrong but because they were right, and they couldn’t adapt well enough to their own teaching.
My wife and I started a time of skipping around from church to church, but they all became less and less satisfying. During all this time we did see actual miracles sometimes. Things happened that were abnormal. So much so that I always knew that God was with me. On the other hand, it was not the blessed life God promised and that was obvious too.
It took time, but eventually I saw that God never wanted to give us rules or laws. The Ten Commandments were given for a special reason, to a special people, for a special time but even they were called a ministry of death. That’s not what God wanted for us. He never wanted us to live by a set of rules. He wanted our hearts.
And I realized that it all starts with the individual, then to you and your friends.
That’s my dream.
Believe it or not, God is very likable.